Friday, September 30, 2005

i didnt realize how long it had been since i had updated. this is just pathetic. i do think about it on occasion. i promise.

not much has happened since the 16th that i can remember right off the top of my head. we had another hurricane. yay! at least the weather was cool at the house for a day. it was dark and windy. it was awesome. and then sunday looked like a page out of a childrens book. it was gorgeous outside. very very nice. something to appreciate after all these grueling months of just plain sticky heat.

i found out this week that my dog has discovered motion sickness. more specifically: car sickness. she has now thrown up twice in my car. once in my cup holders and once on a towel i brought just in case. thank goodness. ickity.

my car is still a piece of crap. i'm having it fixed yet again this weekend. i'm paying a totally different man to re-fix what i paid the last guy nearly $2000 to do wrong in the first place. do i like flushing money down the toilet?? yes, it would seem so. and in addition to just being a normal piece o'poo, with this sudden hike of gas prices(again) i will now be spending approx $400 a month in gas. FOUR HUNDRED DOLLARS!!! i could pay like a "good car" note for that. eh, one day.

one day...

Thursday, September 15, 2005


well, hm. it's been forever since i've updated. not much of actual interest has happened lately.

tons of little stuff has happened. i went to my first football game (and tailgate party, we who?)last weekend. i complained the entire 20 minutes we were there. which sounds bad, but we got in for free, i had a great start for a migraine, and there was some fat guy behind us screaming at the field after every play. i leaned over and whispered "i feel like turning around and saying 'thank you, i love you'." (i looked and looked and looked for an appropriate link for that, but nothing came up. its from the show starved and its what sam's yoga teacher told him to say to people who annoyed him instead of saying something mean.)

i was awakened abruptly the other morning when mork, our DARLING cat, stuck his head in a glass of water next to the bed and knocked it over onto my head and upper back. this freezing water proceeded to run all the way down, so i half slept for the next few hours shivering in a never ending pool. (i am a VERY hard sleeper) i got up every so often to pee and fetch another towel. i dont know how on earth that little cup held that many gallons of ever flowing water.

1 to 2 of my puppies were almost given freely away day before yesterday to total strangers. this did not happen and we'll not discuss it further. hopefully this will not become an issue again. you.

we've developed an infestation of fleas in the house recently. i wonder if that's my fault?? hmmmm. anyways. i was kept awake the majority of last night because of one little flea. just one. not biting, just crawling around and around. i'd wake up just enough to slap myself, then realize he moved somewhere else. i finally woke up in a really, really good mood at 6:30 and COOKED breakfast. can you imagine?? i then took out the trash, washed a couple loads of clothes and such, and exercised while watching tv. i finally realized what was going on when i started my period. ah ha, this explains EVERYTHING. i finished off the day this evening with 3 or 4 spontaneous bouts of crying.

that hasn't really been that uncommon recently. i dont know if i'm 'becoming' bipolar, or what, if that's even possible, but my emotions are always topsyturvey(like i know how the fuck to spell that word{s}) generally speaking these days, my emotions are on either one end of the spectrum or the other. it's rare that i get a happy medium. the splats of giddiness are great and relationshippally(yeah, made that one up myself, couldnt tell, couldja??) rewarding. but the blops of greater depression than i'm used to are getting increasingly unbearable. i'm a generally awkward person, but i'm finding it harder and more frustrating to try to act more semi-non-awkward than your average semi-non-awkward person. but i'm beginning to think about considering looking into the possibility of anti-depressants. as much as i've always thought this idea was ridiculous, because i consider my paranoias, fears, awkwardnesses, and other such problems to be relatively normal, everybody has quirks, right??

for lack of a better, more appropriate ending to this entry...

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

sitting at my sisters house getting ready to leave for work

kind of in a hurry, so let's run through the piddly stuff, shall we??

i peed outside for the first time ever two weeks ago. this was a monumental day in my life that i failed to mention on here. my apologies. too much alcohol and not enough bathrooms on the way home from the bar. i am now a WOMAN!!!

i finally got our last dog spayed, so no more puppies at brad's house from now on. woo-hoo. turns out dogs can be really expensive, too.

the new girl at work asked me to go to a movie with her last friday night after work, because my only other options were:drive to monroe to see what progress my sisters church had made with the donations stuff, go home, change, and drive to natchitoches and sit at the bar for an hour, or just go home and wait patiently for the penis bearer's return. so, we instead went to bossier's boardwalk, vury vury nice, and saw skeleton key at their new regal theater. that movie ROCKED!! little scary what with the voodoo/hoodoo and what not. it didnt end like i thought it was going to though. that was a pleasant surprise. although there is almost a boob scene, i HIGHLY recommend this movie. very very worth your time. or, well, mine. which, i give my time away like um, something you give without much consideration, but uhhhhh, yeaaah. go see this movie!!

other movies i wanna see: charlie and the chocolate factory, although, i think that'll stop playing before i get that opportunity.
corpse bride:man, do i wanna see that. i LOVE claymation type stuff like that. made by the same guy who did nightmare before christmas. obviously if you've ever seen the previews.
hmm, there were several others i wanted to see, but for the life of me i cant think of anymore besides those. oh, well.

but, uh, its a little after two now and i must be off to work.