quick! hide the vibrator!

i am so tired. i just got woken up by an old friend i havent seen in like 3 years. she now has two kids and another on the way. she was a little hellion a while back and now she's suzie homemaker. or something like that. shockingly enough, the realization hit me again today that my life isnt really that interesting. well, unless i go into personal stuff, but who does that with old friends?? i mean, seriously? the closest we got was just discussing our vaginas. it was wee fun.

i got rid of another pup yesterday. marvin, my big baby. oooh, i cried. owie. so, i call dude up and tell him the deal with me not being able to keep the dog. he says he understands. i ask him to take the dog for me to the houston spca, sure thing. so, last night after he left, i went to the front office to talk to one of our dispatchers there who told me what he would do if it were him was drop the dog off half way home, becuase in my mind i would always know that he went to the spca and the guy did a good deed without actually having to do it. this had already occurred to me, but hearing somebody else say it didnt make it any better. so, i called dude on the way home this morning and discussed my new paranoid issue with him and asked him to bring back some donation pamphlets with him for starters because i'm interested because i put another burdon on these people and dude wouldnt take any money, and secondly for proof of the drop off. wow, was that the wrong thing to say.

"well, my word should be enough. i'm not like all the other pieces of shit people you hang around with back in saline." (excuse me??) "and if you dont trust me, you shouldnt have gave me the dog in the first place."

"are you mad??"

"a little insulted and offended."

--------------silence--------------

and he then proceeded to letting me go.

so, now i'm thinking he "had" every intention of going to the spca in the first place, but will now drop the dog out of spite for my......lack of politeness? i dont know. great. another conversation that i fucked up because i dont know how to communicate, i guess. i wasnt trying to be insulting or offensive. what does his 'word' mean to me? i dont know this guy from a hold in the ground, except for, you know, his ability to speak. and i've never heard a hole say anything. nothing coherant anyways.

moving on...

our terminal manager quit a few days ago after only being there for like 3 months. so, our sales guy is our new terminal manager and we got to hang out and talk for a while this morning. he said he was gonna try everything he could to get me full time. i'll see that when i believe it. he told me that the lady who was hired to help me out when i was billing is gonna quit next friday. that broke my little pea pickin' heart. shes one of the few people i can think of that i really genuinely enjoy their company. course she had already warned me about this a few weeks ago. she took this as a little part time job for a little extra cash for 3 hours a day(because she already has a full time day job) and with the way things are going now she's working until like 11 every night. which, i mean, i understand completely and i dont blame her at all, but damn. i really like her alot. i dont want her to quit. though, like i said, i understand her position and if i were working with.......some of the same people she is i dont know if i'd stick around either, especially if i already had another job. i'm thinking maybe i should go back on the evening shift, maybe she'd stay, and maybe i wont have to work with the dick anus i do now. man, wouldnt that rock. holy shit that would rock. i dont know, nights arent nearly as great as i remember them. i took that job because of principal. i could have all day to do what i want, which is cool, granted. but also so i could spend time in the afternoons with the people i love. well, turns out, i dont hang around anybody anyway. i shouldve taken that evening job in lafayette. nah, just kiddin'. i am smart enough to realize i am waaaaaaay to naive and immature to move way off like that with no one around.

its been long enough now and i've decided that i'm ready to end the blood letting. now that i'm over that whole first day of "yay, i'm on my period with this wonderful burst of energy and sense of inner peace and purpose" and now i'm all "is my fuckin' uterus ever gonna shut her damn mouth????" yeah, because i know you all care so much. i love you too.

ooh, and to cap this wonderful week off, i have a fever blister. it's a little undecided on whether or not it wants to come out, but its definitely there. just hangin' out. chillin'. yay for herpes!!

that's all folks...