Friday, March 18, 2005

Not-so-extreme Precautionary Measures

bad habit

biting keeps your words at bay
tending to the sores that stay
happiness is just a gash away
when i open a familiar scar
pain goes shooting like a star
comfort hasn't failed to follow so far...

and you might say it's self-indulgent
you might say its self-destructive
but, you see, it's more productive
than if i were to be healthy

& pens and penknives take the blame
crane my neck & scratch my name
but the ugly marks
are worth the momentary gain...
when i jab a sharpened object in
choirs of angels seem to sing
hymns of hate in memorandum

and you might say it's self-indulgent
and you might say it's self-destructive
but, you see, it's more productive
than if i were to be happy

and sappy songs about sex and cheating
bland accounts of two lovers meeting
make me want to give mankind a beating

and you might say it's self-destructive
but, you see, i'd kick the bucket
sixty times before i'd kick the habit

and as the skin rips off i cherish the revolting thought
that even if i quit
there's not a chance in hell i'd stop
and anyone can see the signs
mittens in the summertime
thank you for your pity, you are too kind

and you might say its self-inflicted
but you see that's contradictive
why on earth would anyone practice self destruction?

and pain opinions are sitcom feeding
they dont know that their minds are teething
makes me want to give mankind a beating

i'm tried bandages and sinking
i've tried gloves and even thinking
i've tried vaselinei've tried everything
and no-one cares if your back is bleeding
they're concerned with their hair receding
looking back it was all maltreating
every thought that occurred misleading

makes me want to give myself a beating....

i like that song.

well, here we are again today. not doing a damn thing. waiting on requests for guidance. i found out today that i am not going back to working nights on monday. yay. if i could make a rasberry face, i would. this frustrates me very, very much. the girl who i've been training for almost 3 weeks now has yet to be here on time. and i dont mean like 5 or 10 minutes. i mean like 2 and 3 hours. in her defense, she was here 5 minutes early yesterday. i was all proud, she got here before i did. i thought "maybe we're on some kind of new roll." she got here 30 minutes late today and then went outside and talked for a while. i've also noticed, she doesnt exactly um, how shall i say, "know" how to type. she's half speedy-ish at the henpeckin', but its still that, henpeckin'. eh, hopefully in a few more days this will not be my problem.

ew, thats a nasty color. this is no better. even perhaps worse.

well, off to hunt up something to do for a while, so i dont seem 'quite' so lazy...


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