i almost forgot

i'm ashamed of myself. 22 years ago today crystal eloise dison was born. this was my best friend from kindergarten up until the 5th grade. just for drama: on friday, october 29th we were at school and i dont remember exactly what happened, but our whole class was in the old gym(because our school has two, the old one where brad graduated, and the new one where i graduated) anywho, something had happened which hurt her feelings bladdy bladdy blah, we ten year olds were so emotional, and she said to me "just leave me alone". that was the last time i saw her face to face. that'll do for the drama part, i think. halloween was gonna be on sunday that year and as we all know, you cant trick-or-treat on a sunday so the town moved it to saturday night. she called me friday night and BEGGED me to ask my mom to let her go with us. i told her i really didnt think mom would say yes, so i never asked. she got mad and hung up on me. so, saturday rolls around, i trick-or-treat with a lady from church and her kids, we go uptown saline and there are lights and sirens everywhere. my fifth grade teacher at the time comes up to the car and talks to the lady i was with, "yeah, some girl named crystal dison, or something like that just got hit by a car or something" which, in a bigger town might not seem like much, we had less than 20 people in our class, she knew crystal very, very well. our town is TINY. anywho, so i went home, took a bath, got out, and my parents were waiting at the table for me to tell me that crystal had been killed by a drunk driver. so, i went hysterical and my mom rocked me to sleep while my dad talked about me in the third person saying repeatedly in shock "i just cant believe she took it this hard" real shocker there. went to the funeral home the next night, got flooded with tons of people i really didnt know, and i did not appreciate that. people, dont do that to kids, they dont like it. trust me. i remember her head being really swollen and bruised. theres a mental picture i'll always treasure. (not really) umm, so, that was when i went from the loudest most obnoxious child probably in existance, to the quiet, afraid, paranoid, over-analyzing person i was a year and a half ago. adult life has since further ruined me. but just for the record, to anyone who knows me, i really was a fairly normal child. you know, that whole dead best friend thing, just kinda fucked me up. happy birthday, crystal.

now, the reason i originally got on today does anyone have a hamster or a gerbil they're trying to get rid of because i've decided to get my neice one for her birthday and i'd rather see if anyone has something they dont want before i go to a pet store. lemme know...
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